В душата на една фея

I know it and I feel it-I do not need somebody to tell me the truth...she is not with me anymore....I mean we laugh and we go to cinema/theatre and we study and write our homeworks together and we are OK but nothing more...we cant have a real conversations we cant talk for smth serious,it is only small talks that we have for smth that someone said or we heard/saw smth and I do not like it but I tried I really did but there was no feedback and I cant do it myself I just cant...is there an aptions that I can try or is it the end?!!...we have a long history and we know each other for almost 16 years-it is all my life and things changed-we experience a lot,we never fought,I know that I can tell her everything but I am not sure if she is listening and she is really hearing me and I am not sure I can rely on her...she can and she knows it but the thinks that she should not share some things that are not important but I feel like I am not aware about these things and the only sourse is she an...

I am in a dark whole and now that I turned 17 I am in a deep wondering...I said that I want a bright future and that I am willing to do that but it is easy on words but on actions it is very very hard...now as I failed on the exam I am disappointed from myself and I sarted wondering do I have the strenght to get 2 years for one[in school]-and I decided that I cant I am not that person.I want my life,I want to be a normal and grown up person--->so I am staying at school with my classmatesno matter if they like me or not,I am going to get what I want from life until university...I still know what I want from life and I know what lifestyle I want...I do not know if I am going to get it,but I will try...I will try to be the person I want and my family know what I am..Do I have friends?Not sure!But time will show..All my classmates ask me some questions which I know the answers and I try to understand my aims-but they have different view of life and have things that influant on them,so i...

Yeah I want to be successful,rich,famous,popular,happy,energetic,with family and to do whatever I want and to work what I love but how is it going to happen when my drages are low,then my diploma is low and my chances of getting in university are low???My mom is angry about that!?It is worth it work hard now and live your happy and successful life after but what happen with all the things I wannt to catch and still feel that I am teenager?!!!Yes I am separated in different things and most of you are going to ask:"Does this girl know what she wants?"-I know what I want and where I want to be in 10 years but just right now I do not know myself and I am not sure in my strenght and there is no one to believe in me-even my mom who is always there for me-but not this time,she is disappointed[or I feel it like that she didnt tell me anything]-I am too...How should I do smth I am not interested in while there is smth that is waiting for me and I am going to get itafter I do some thhi...

I was wondering-there are so many people in the world and everybody is so different but still we can seperate them/us in groups: one are rich/poor other are beautiful/ugly third are successful/non successful but nobody ask themselves for the true soul of the person,they just say they are...and leave it like that...I am disgused from this...It is from the side where people who just are selfish and do not want to care for others...Why are there people who are trying to make other people lives miserable...There are so beautiful and good souls out there and who and how many are the people who care for them?!A few?Sometimes there are less than 2-ad it is sad and that is because she/he is sad to be ugly/poor/non sucessful/too popular/no one knows for their excistance...why is that?Why should be like that?Why is there so envy,jelous,anger,negative emotions...How should I be motivated to do smth after this negative energy is around me?!