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I am thinking about writing a story....A story about a girl and her sudden trip to Greece,a country she enjoys but actually never had the chance to feel it as she wants...It would be full of feeling emotions thoughts...all about life and the word living as I want to....it is not biographical but it will contains true stories that happened to me or that i heard...stories that i actually do want to happen and some that i imagine to be the perfect match here.....I dont know where it will go,I dont know if u are going to like it but I want to know what u think....it is more about myself...it is a challenge for me and smth to keep me focus and organise....I want to put order on my life and cut this chaos for a little while although my phylosophy teacher said that her purpose in the first two months is to confuse us and and broke evert way of thinking in us so we start bilding again-smth i actually dont want to and am not planing of doing....but this would be a funny way to be productive and...

I cant understand why there are mean people who actually live for embarrassing people and for their lives...like they enjoy living not there own but others..isnt this hard then live ur own life..i mean think about it they should be so despreat they probably had the worst childhood they are envious jelouse mean and all they want to do is ruin but not creat...i think about that and i only come up with the idea that they are born for a balance on this nature so their is GOOD and Evil / Bad no ather explanation....It is like their life is based on the other lives is smth change in others lives then it changes this person and why should it be that..what is the easy part...and they actually enjoy it they actually like the things they do and the way people feel after their actions...they love seeing other people down when they think they are on top but still they are even more down that this broken person..i just cant get it...

Years ago, when I was younger I kind of liked, a girl I knew She was mine and we were sweethearts That was then but then it's true (Chorus) I'm in love with a fairytale Even though it hurts Cause I don't care if I lose my mind, I'm already cursed Every day we started fighting Every night we fell in love No one else could make me sadder But no one else could lift me high above I don't know what I was doing Suddenly we fell apart Nowadays I cannot find her But when I do we'll get a brand new start (Chorus) I'm in love with a fairytale Even though it hurts Cause I don't care if I lose my mind, I'm already cursed She's a fairytale, yeah Even though it hurts cause I don't care if I lose my mind, I'm already cursed

Хахаха не е истина просто....учебната година започна и аз съм ностроена някак позитивно и съм се решила че тези две години които ми остават няма да ги пропилявам.Е тва не значи че няма да се опитам да се забавлявам и все пак да си живея живота но някак по организирано и съсредоточено!..... От два дни съм сууууууупер сдухана и явно съм в предменструалният си синдром защото съм страшно злобна и ям всичко живо наред и все пак успявам да намеря начин да не го показвам,да се развеселявам като ми се дореве,да не нахранвам всички,да гледам позитивно на нещата и да мисля позитивно....... Явно ще трябва да направя някакви компромиси относно моята лична персона ако искам наистина да си оформя хора около мен....както казва мама не живея в спалните на Софиа така че да намеря компания е трудно но ще видим но съм решена на коренна промяна.И без това съм казала че тези 2 години остатък в училище са безмислени поне да вземем най-доброто от тях независимо какво..... Така се чувствам сякаш след няколко ...

U know all teenagers in these days watch TV shows like One tree hill,Gossip Girl,Greek,90210 and so on and so on there are like tousands [hihihi] and they watch them because they see all this new and unkown world to them like fashion,money,power,drugs,ruined families,lonely kids,good schools,mean girls,few true friends,good looking boys and girls,bad habits ect but probably one on 1000 of them honestly ask themselves is there a true story actually,can u believe that this can happen in real life,what is the purpose of making shows like this and what the directors want to tell ypung people and actually to think a lot more deeper in them and to see things that only mature people can see because of their experience and mind and again not every adult only the once that are interested and are watching it and that faced life....I am a kid which grows in a hole different country and area and I am interested and see things differently then others and I can say that they are really helpful and n...

U know I keep watching those tv shows that are full of real things and I keep asking myself do they really exist cause I don’t know any of it aster that I say to myself do I really need to know staff like that in my life how are they going to change my life for better and then I just say to myself that I am a happy teenager although I think I am not the typical kind of teenager and that my life is easy and I have to be thankful that it is not like in a movie and then I have my own issues to deal with and when I say my own I really mean my own cause not many of my “ friends ” have them and actually think that there is smth wrong cause they just don’t have this and it is like what they don’t have I have it and for me it is totally normal but still the difference is that I understand them and I really try and I think I do in the end but my things they are so deep in me that even my mom which I think is smth strange can not understand me and I am just all words and I act like there is no b...

I am starting to repeat myself...... I just can get why people are so scared,so scared of trying searching finding... Today most of the couples are together not because they love each other but because they are scared of being alone,searching for smth better,finding the one that is going to love them,finding love,feeling the real feel,scared of smth new and real scared of themselves,scared of being dumped and hurt scared of who are they going to be.Why is that?Why dont people risk wish want believe and be selfish.Life is way too short to not do this things.

What is life all about? I am living this easy life and I am trying to figure out what path to take.I am so insecure in myself.I dont know what exactly I want.I am not sure where I am going.I know some things.I have more questions then answers.There are some times I just realize some things and I feel like I am growing up.I am feeling the change and the difference.I can deffere more things now and I feel more than ok with myself. I was wondering what is life all about?Money power career love or what?In all times there was this separation of rich and poor and as I grow up I feel more and more that separation but I also see that there are more and more young people that I trying to stay untouched of this and make friends no matter what status they have and somehow I am proud of this and I feel happy about that.But I also see some other issus that bother young people and that they become like a fashion between them and some things that before where impossible to happen because of smth now ...