Is it complicated or I made it?....
I am really in a hury right now because I have to read Hamlet for tomorrow and dont be surprised if you dont understand anything or just mess up all the information and it is not clear....
It is about my class...I cant remember who was I 3 years ago,I dont know who am I and I dont who I will be сin 3 years and here I begin the problem about my class is that we are together from 3years and then I was[from what I remembre and think]very confused negative angry and so on and the reflection from these my emotions soon became fact-no body liked me and I wasnt the person they wanted to talk and they still dont want to change their mind even I really changed...the real thing is that my dreams,my view of life,my priorities and my style of living is away from theirs sa I decided then that after I dont have smth to stop me here[because I have no friend or well maybe I do have and they are few but true they think the same as me so we probably are going in the same direction and we will be together so no one is left]I should take two years in one at school and go to university one year earlier....it would be hard for me to take this step,it challange me a lot,and I can prove myself that I can do anything that takes to achive my dreams and goals...but I cant imagin to really do it and that is scary but I want to do it and I want it for myself and anyway that is another topic my point was that I go to school and I have one close person and she is one of my friend even that we are different we compleate each other that make us good fr...except her I dont have anyone and it is pitty but it is better than talking for some stuff that you never heard or done or you are not interested in.I dont care for these people but I saw an ex-classmate who came to see us and he really enjoys our company and he is grown up he is not that child when he left and I really like that and that feel that he experienced with us I kind of feel jealousy because he feels happy and excited and comfortable-something I never had in this class and I am sure that when I leave them and after a year I come to see them there is not going to be this welcoming and unthusiastic faces and it is sad but I accept it and I agree with it because the only person I have to be mad is me...and my qustion is do I have to be close to them now so they can remember me like the real me and just ignore the fact that I am not interested in the things they do and they are interested in or just to keep on doing the same things as every other day and know that they wont remember me after 10/20 years.....?
It is about my class...I cant remember who was I 3 years ago,I dont know who am I and I dont who I will be сin 3 years and here I begin the problem about my class is that we are together from 3years and then I was[from what I remembre and think]very confused negative angry and so on and the reflection from these my emotions soon became fact-no body liked me and I wasnt the person they wanted to talk and they still dont want to change their mind even I really changed...the real thing is that my dreams,my view of life,my priorities and my style of living is away from theirs sa I decided then that after I dont have smth to stop me here[because I have no friend or well maybe I do have and they are few but true they think the same as me so we probably are going in the same direction and we will be together so no one is left]I should take two years in one at school and go to university one year earlier....it would be hard for me to take this step,it challange me a lot,and I can prove myself that I can do anything that takes to achive my dreams and goals...but I cant imagin to really do it and that is scary but I want to do it and I want it for myself and anyway that is another topic my point was that I go to school and I have one close person and she is one of my friend even that we are different we compleate each other that make us good fr...except her I dont have anyone and it is pitty but it is better than talking for some stuff that you never heard or done or you are not interested in.I dont care for these people but I saw an ex-classmate who came to see us and he really enjoys our company and he is grown up he is not that child when he left and I really like that and that feel that he experienced with us I kind of feel jealousy because he feels happy and excited and comfortable-something I never had in this class and I am sure that when I leave them and after a year I come to see them there is not going to be this welcoming and unthusiastic faces and it is sad but I accept it and I agree with it because the only person I have to be mad is me...and my qustion is do I have to be close to them now so they can remember me like the real me and just ignore the fact that I am not interested in the things they do and they are interested in or just to keep on doing the same things as every other day and know that they wont remember me after 10/20 years.....?