my feel about my life ....

Last night I was thinking to go to the fitness and train while I think but I stay late at night on the computer so I overslept.It was the first evening of the new year.I spent the day with my family laughing and shopping and at the end of the day I realize what I have and what I want to do in future what are my goals and where I want to be…My example is my mom she is not a saint or perfect but somehow she contains all that I want to have-the strength the mind the experience the wisdom….she thought all this only from life ….she never go to university or college-but does this matter at all I don’t think u have to went to university to have brain and to think right.I mean I want to go to university because I love to learn but that doesn’t mean we have to judge and not talk with other people without this education or to have prejudice for them….we have to give them a chance to prove themselves… but that is what I thought…
Today when I wake up I turn on the radio and there was playing Infinity one of my favourite songs and it reminds me of my last summer holiday with the best people I have ever known so I felt the same way like I was still there like I have never returned and never started my life again…there was this fun this opportunity to feel that I am who I am and to feel alive…I just want that feel back with the same people that are my friends…I love to feel the water earth and air at the same time there in Malta I feel that every second of my breath…this was the place I was born in a previous life [maybe] … I feel like I am in prison here like I do not belong in my country …this feel increase every time I want to do something but I can do it else where not here or when I am disappointed from life …. I want to control my life … I don’t want to feel powerless and to depend on something…it makes me weak and I don`t want to feel like this I hate it….