The mess in my head/Part 1
I dont know why what where when....about my life....
It is this mess and like it has it order and i have no control on it-strange but true...i get pissed off when i have no control on my own things and my thoughts are me thing one of my pressious things.....
I cant say what my situatuation is...I have this 3 girls that i know they love me and the care about me and sometimes interested in my life in their own way....have one girl who actually dont know how things happen-she is so into her life and doesnt care about others whitch makes me angry at her cause she wasnt like that before 6 months...sunddenly she changed but if u ask someone else includinh her there is no change and i am imaging-OK it is for her own good not for mine....I have this boy who i met 2 months ago and i can say i really like talking to him...he is the person i really have connection-and it is special and i never felt like i do with him but that is other subject and i dont want to fix the things....
I go to school and i dont know why i go...now i accepted the fact that i have to go so i dont make any problems but still..today one of my classmates accidently hit me with the volleyball ball and it was out of the blue and i felt really sick and my head really hurt but after i got out of the school everything was just perfect...the weather was warm and the sunset was almost begining and all students were leaving school and i felt just happy...I looked at the sky and i saw a clear baby blue sky only with one small small plane leaving traces after him and i started dreaming about summer,friends,experiences,fun,happiness.....
Now my mom wants to talk about my plans for the rest of the school year and i made the mistake of makeing a fool of her all these years...i have this problem of changing my mind every 3 days and evert 3 days i am doing smth new and has nothing to do with the previous one whitch talks that i am irresponsible and not serious about my life whitch is not it just that my head is a mess and i just pick things until i foiund what i need but the bigger problem is that i dont know what i am looking for...for now i do not know that i found smth things i need for my bag nothing else and now when i say smth she things taht it is just my next dream and i am going to drop it soon,that i am kidding,that i am not serious and that it is just in my thought and to not think about it....
I have this other boy who i like but honestly i dont know what i like in him it is just attraction for now but i left things as they are cause there is no point of thinking of smth i know i am going to do it my way and by intuition so...
I was interupted in the middle of this so i dont know what was in my head before that so i can continue....
Good nite
It is this mess and like it has it order and i have no control on it-strange but true...i get pissed off when i have no control on my own things and my thoughts are me thing one of my pressious things.....
I cant say what my situatuation is...I have this 3 girls that i know they love me and the care about me and sometimes interested in my life in their own way....have one girl who actually dont know how things happen-she is so into her life and doesnt care about others whitch makes me angry at her cause she wasnt like that before 6 months...sunddenly she changed but if u ask someone else includinh her there is no change and i am imaging-OK it is for her own good not for mine....I have this boy who i met 2 months ago and i can say i really like talking to him...he is the person i really have connection-and it is special and i never felt like i do with him but that is other subject and i dont want to fix the things....
I go to school and i dont know why i go...now i accepted the fact that i have to go so i dont make any problems but still..today one of my classmates accidently hit me with the volleyball ball and it was out of the blue and i felt really sick and my head really hurt but after i got out of the school everything was just perfect...the weather was warm and the sunset was almost begining and all students were leaving school and i felt just happy...I looked at the sky and i saw a clear baby blue sky only with one small small plane leaving traces after him and i started dreaming about summer,friends,experiences,fun,happiness.....
Now my mom wants to talk about my plans for the rest of the school year and i made the mistake of makeing a fool of her all these years...i have this problem of changing my mind every 3 days and evert 3 days i am doing smth new and has nothing to do with the previous one whitch talks that i am irresponsible and not serious about my life whitch is not it just that my head is a mess and i just pick things until i foiund what i need but the bigger problem is that i dont know what i am looking for...for now i do not know that i found smth things i need for my bag nothing else and now when i say smth she things taht it is just my next dream and i am going to drop it soon,that i am kidding,that i am not serious and that it is just in my thought and to not think about it....
I have this other boy who i like but honestly i dont know what i like in him it is just attraction for now but i left things as they are cause there is no point of thinking of smth i know i am going to do it my way and by intuition so...
I was interupted in the middle of this so i dont know what was in my head before that so i can continue....
Good nite