How can I say ...
How can I say it is smth different when it is the same how can I say it is lame when I like it how can I say that it is not for me and that cant happen when I want it to be?!...
It is the same old story...It is a love story,the one that I naver had and never felt but the one that I desire...and I talk to that boy while I am watching another hollywood tv show and trying to fill what I miss..and that boy that once I had some feeling for and he pretends that he doesnt know and I dont care...I have a purpose for him as I do with this boy that I have interest on...They are far from each other and they are like earth and sky....I never reached earth and I think I know why now I dont believe that I am going to reach sky and again I know why...what should I chase in that case?!Fire?Water?Deep or hot?!As much as I see I get confused and as long as I think I get more deep and I mix thoughts..but I try and I need this cause I feel alive when I do that and I dont bother anyone with that..I dont speak about it unless they dont ask me to....But there is this other person air who is nothing like sky or earth...he gives me from far away distance space freedom wisdom love ..it is like what I need ...but is it what I want?!No answer to that...how come people can tell what they want for sure in their hearts?!My air is the one that can show me worlds and I need to see them with him...but thera are just some things I need too not just from curiousity but a need too and for an experience that I cant get cause it is hard for me and it turns out it is not natural for me....I want to see water fire earth and sky too..but when I found air it is like I dont have too..although I cant say if he can gives me those four?!But he can gives me whet they can for me from their world but not from themselves and I want them I need them I wanna see them not just their world.......
Again you didnt understand anything and again I am lost in my own thought......I usually write after I make sentance about smth that made me and impression and this time it was called The Vampire diaries also that talk with that boy too....and I still dont have conclusion or a right answer or to tell you what I am trying to see although I do think I know what I want to say but still dont have the words and thoughts about it.......
It is the same old story...It is a love story,the one that I naver had and never felt but the one that I desire...and I talk to that boy while I am watching another hollywood tv show and trying to fill what I miss..and that boy that once I had some feeling for and he pretends that he doesnt know and I dont care...I have a purpose for him as I do with this boy that I have interest on...They are far from each other and they are like earth and sky....I never reached earth and I think I know why now I dont believe that I am going to reach sky and again I know why...what should I chase in that case?!Fire?Water?Deep or hot?!As much as I see I get confused and as long as I think I get more deep and I mix thoughts..but I try and I need this cause I feel alive when I do that and I dont bother anyone with that..I dont speak about it unless they dont ask me to....But there is this other person air who is nothing like sky or earth...he gives me from far away distance space freedom wisdom love ..it is like what I need ...but is it what I want?!No answer to that...how come people can tell what they want for sure in their hearts?!My air is the one that can show me worlds and I need to see them with him...but thera are just some things I need too not just from curiousity but a need too and for an experience that I cant get cause it is hard for me and it turns out it is not natural for me....I want to see water fire earth and sky too..but when I found air it is like I dont have too..although I cant say if he can gives me those four?!But he can gives me whet they can for me from their world but not from themselves and I want them I need them I wanna see them not just their world.......
Again you didnt understand anything and again I am lost in my own thought......I usually write after I make sentance about smth that made me and impression and this time it was called The Vampire diaries also that talk with that boy too....and I still dont have conclusion or a right answer or to tell you what I am trying to see although I do think I know what I want to say but still dont have the words and thoughts about it.......