Do I have a place in your life?

you came again.... you come out of nowhere like you did in my dream,but the difference is you didnt knocked on my door you just popped in ... you scared me to death, my heart started beating too fast and i didnt feel my legs.... everything around you came pink and i was wondering 'where am i' ....
you came but this time in my real life ... i wasnt dreaming, i wasnt even day dreaming i was just walking through my boring reality when you showed up in front of me with your smile and crazy good looking body and i smelled your perfume from meters ahead ....
i didnt know what to do, i didnt know what to say .... i just felt like i will explode ... but in a good way ...

you are these type of guy who are always good looking,always knows what to say and when ... you are smart and damn good at talking to people .... you have opinion for everything and you argue no matter who is in front of you... you cherish the people around you ... you know where you live and what you want ... you know what is possible but you will chase even the impossible .... you can love and desire ... you can give yourself to one person .... you are passionate and more importantly you are real and that is what i like about you ...

i wonder and i think i am no good for you ... not good enough ....
i always feel like whatever i say it is not right .... i understand your feelings but i feel incapable of expressing that .... i want to be around you but what can i give you .... you have everything you need... or that is what i thing but i am probably wrong...
you dont consider me as a friend - just a girl  you met two years ago ... i dont feel like i have place in your life although i do want and i will fight if i have to ... i just want to know how you feel ... cause that will make difference ....
Yes,knowing other peoples feeling does change things!

~ava