for you....

I dont know what is it... is it me,my feelings,my imagination or my needs .... but i got use to you ... i got use to how you touch or smell or laugh ... and the smile, the shinning eyes .. they way you speak ... the way i feel about you .... and now it is all gone ... for one week it was true .... i wasnt alone and in the same time i felt free and i loved it .... i am loving the memory ... but what was this ... i know i have to leave it that way, not to ask, not to tell but i am interested ... i am sick of having this kind of things - just for the moment, just for tonight ... i want it to last ... to last a lil longer ... i want to get to know you ... as i started ... i am even asking myself '.. what if we had more time?' .. are we suitable? are we going to last... to hold on ... or are we going to kill each other eventually ... i want you ... you the hole - the body and the spirit, and the mind ... i need you even more then i want you ... you are so caring and loving, and wanting ... and i can give you .. i know i can give you everything you need and want from me ... but i dont know how you feel about me .. i dont know myself but i know i am positive and i miss you almost every second and every photo i see from there ...the distance is killing us and will forever...eventually we will stop caring and we will just be left with the photos and the memories of each other and i hate that part - i hope you are the one thing that will last longer but life has different opinion as every other time ... and i am hitting the wall and i dont know which is reality and which is not ... i know that i want you so badly! .....

For you
Kisses

~AkA